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Why does creativity always strike when I'm supposed to be doing something else?
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Not only do I have a kickass idea for an art project (well, okay, it's something I've been meaning to draw for years, but now I finally know how I'm actually going to execute it), but also a kickass idea for an LJ style/layout/thingy.

Buuuuuut I'm supposed to be working on this evil evil midterm for my philosophy of mind class--the same midterm I've had for over a week now but haven't had time to do because I had 3 other midterms at the same time. And this is something that really did need that much attention, as I'm finding out now. I'm only just now reading the questions...

I am so damn stupid. And lazy. And selfish. And a million other bad things. Plus, my sister wants me to drive her and her wishes-he-was-her-boyfriend around apartment-hunting in North Dallas tomorrow, which I'm really not looking forward to. He's the one who got her the job at Subway, and she's planning on moving in with him now. He's less responsible than the one who works at Discount Tire, but now that she's actually got a job, she needs to live close by it, and his job is in Duncanville, so living with him would be impractical. Speaking of which, she's taking over car payments, so on the plus side I no longer have to drive that horrible station wagon that she loves so much. On the minus side, I have to rely on my parents once again for transportation, which I could argue that they owe me because they bought my sister a new car when she was in high school whilst I drove a ratty old truck we'd had since I was 6... Okay, so they're not getting another new car. But it's not gonna be a station wagon, and it's gonna be mine. One of the perks of actually being in school is that they're not making me pay for my own shitty used car... But if they're hoping that might induce my sister to go to college too, they're wrong. Oh well. College isn't for everybody, I guess.

I really shouldn't still be up this late if I'm not working, but for some reason I just don't want to go to bed. It's probably that weird dream I had last night. Or not. I just really really don't feel like sleeping. If my grandmother wasn't here I'd probably go in the living room, turn the lamp on, and read a book. But since she is here and sleeping on a cot in the living room, she'd yell at me and then blame me for everything that goes wrong tomorrow for keeping her up all night. In fact, she'll probably do that anyway, because about an hour ago Rena and I were watching a syndicated rerun of Frasier, and Rena laughed really loud at one point (if something's really funny, she does this sort of high-pitched scream thing--so do I, sometimes) and I thought I heard her gravelly voice yelling "y'all better shut up in there!" She doesn't really scare us anymore like she did when we were little, but she's still a hateful old bitch with a mean streak a mile wide. Yes, I know she's my grandmother and I love her, but just because you love someone doesn't mean you don't see them for who they really are. In fact, that's probably one of the prerequisites for really loving someone, seeing all their flaws.

I just don't want to sleep. I'm too excited about these new projects I've dreamed up; too disappointed that I have to shelve them temporarily; too worried about this midterm and that if I shelve this stuff for too long I'll completely forget about it. Even a good book and a warm cup of coffee would be poor substitutes for someone to cuddle with, if I had even those... Bah, I'll just go depress myself to sleep. I'm too dehydrated to cry.
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raditzsex From: raditzsex Date: Friday 10th October 2003 07.30 (UTC) (Link)
So, your sister's career plans are to be a sandwich artist?
How is she going to afford a car payment *and* an apartment?
valamelmeo From: valamelmeo Date: Friday 10th October 2003 11.10 (UTC) (Link)
Well, this guy who wishes he was her boyfriend (who is a bit on the irresponsible side when it comes to decisions like "should I buy anime DVDs or should I pay the rent") says he's gonna pay half the rent and half her car payment, since he's gonna live with her (right now he's riding the bus to work near 75 & Forest from Seagoville). But he also works at Subway, so I dunno how that's gonna work out, either the part about affording both apartment and car, or the part involving his plan to get into her pants based on proximity.

I don't really care, either. She's taking over the car payments whether she moves out or not, which is a big relief for me, because I've been making them and I don't drive the car even half as much as she does, and I hate it. If she moves out too, that's just more space and less aggravation for me. I just have to make sure she doesn't steal my stuff when she goes.