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Still craving bacon & eggs for lunch most days. I wonder if that… - love like me ・ 日記
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Still craving bacon & eggs for lunch most days. I wonder if that means there's something wrong with me. It wouldn't annoy me so much if it didn't mean having to eat at Sonic for lunch every day since I can't be out of the office more than 30 minutes and nowhere else has a bacon-and-egg item available to go at noon.

Almost resigned to being that girl everyone says there's nothing wrong with but apparently there's nothing right either because I can't seem to keep anyone interested in anything other than my boobs. I'd say I was resigned if saying it didn't put tears in my eyes. Apparently I'm the sort of person who inspires apathy in people, if they remember me at all. Given the number of times lately I've been told "I don't think we've met before" by people I've actually met 2 or 3 times previously, anyway.

I did always say the superpower I wanted was invisibility, but I'm damn sure this isn't what I had in mind.
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dansaikyo From: dansaikyo Date: Saturday 24th June 2006 18.58 (UTC) (Link)
Jack in the Box has those bacon and egg biscuits now and they serve breakfast 24 hours so there's that as an alternative...

As far as the other stuff... I used to feel like that, really strongly... and then... I did the radical-alteration-to-my-appearance thing with decreased my anonymity, though without increasing my attractiveness... I guess right now, the main reason why I don't feel upset about no one paying attention to me or liking me is that... I've embraced my disdain and hostility for the vast majority of the rest of the people on Earth. I don't care so much now that people don't really like me because I can't stand almost everyone. I don't know if that's... helpful or harmful to say really... :/ I don't admonish people to be like me - I'm a bastard. I do get it though and I'm sorry. I know how much it can hurt... I'm here though, I mean, I'm many miles away, but I read and I do care.
valamelmeo From: valamelmeo Date: Wednesday 28th June 2006 18.34 (UTC) (Link)
As a girl, part of the problem is that I don't dress fashionably and I don't wear makeup. This leads a lot of people to either not notice me at all, or think I'm already married and have let myself go, or think I'm some sort of bulldyke who hates men, when the truth is that I just fucking want to be comfortable. It's important to me that my clothing is comfortable and that I look like ME. If they don't like what I look like without makeup, they don't deserve to see me with it. I'm not into advertising. Advertising gets you laid, but it won't make you happy when you wouldn't have been happy anyway. I just didn't expect it'd take so long.