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So I am officially not speaking to my mother now. If anyone wants to know why, feel free to ask.

I'm also officially not asleep, at 3:46am as of typing this sentence, and there's not a good reason why. I'm bleeding exhausted, and I can't fucking sleep. It doesn't have anything to do with my mother, though. I wasn't even thinking about her till in my insomnia I read some other posts.

I just keep thinking I want to go home, but I've never really known where that is, exactly. It never meant my parents' house, even when they were together and my mom was managing at least an appearance of sanity.

But last night was Catherine's birthday, and it was a lot of fun. Dinner at Blue Mesa Grill (which is good, despite the fact that Bobby Flay is a dickhead), and then we were meant to go to Pete's Piano Bar after that, but Amy forgot her ID so we ended up at Sambuca (another restaurant) instead. Three drinks spread over 5 hours is enough to make me sociable, but not enough to make me stupid, I think. At least, I was perfectly fine to drive home, even if I was still slightly rambly. They wouldn't have let me do it if it was otherwise, anyway.

But tonight I can't sleep and I have no idea why. I have to get up in 3 hours... ><
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hnpcc From: hnpcc Date: Tuesday 1st May 2007 00.12 (UTC) (Link)
Are you OK?

valamelmeo From: valamelmeo Date: Tuesday 1st May 2007 03.41 (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, I'm okay. Work has been exhausting lately, meaning that when I do sleep, more likely than not it's filled with dreams about work. Which was the case last night, and earlier this evening when I crashed right after getting home.

About my mother, normally when I ignore her for a week or two, she's making my sister badger me to call her or visit or something. This time she hasn't. Though, knowing her, she's declared herself the victim and decided she's the one who isn't speaking to me. At this point it doesn't matter to me which way it goes, I need to be free from her influence for awhile.
hnpcc From: hnpcc Date: Tuesday 1st May 2007 06.30 (UTC) (Link)
It seems like a good idea for both of you to have some space for a bit. Hope work calms down a bit soon, or at the very least you can plan some time off somewhere. I hate it when I start dreaming about it, it feels like I never left the lab.